A starless sky cannot be wished upon
And what cannot be wished upon leaves no hope
And a cloudless day makes tears seem selfish
Selfish because even the rain decided not to fall
A rain that makes a scorching hot day cool
Washes the pavement we walk on
Helps in the effort of making the world around us grow
Tears wash away the make up
And causes the bruises to sting
A sharp, sharp pain
It was his smile that made him irresistible
The smell of his cologne lured me in
The crease in his abs drove me insane
And even when he aggressively pressed his lips to mine
When he grabbed me by my shoulders before I could stumble back
I substituted the fear for excitement
And I was blind to the red flag
Because I was not that girl
I never could be that girl
My family loved him
They awed as he expressed his hopelessly devoted love for me
I smiled
And I let him speak as I held his hand
Because I had a feeling that he did not want me to speak
As his grip got tighter whenever I tried
Blind
Blind to the red flag
He said he hated when I went out
That I was too beautiful to be seen out in public alone
From then on, I stayed home
And I wished him well whenever he left
I cleaned because he loved the smell of the vanilla febreze
I cooked because I knew he’d be hungry when he got home
But I wasn’t that girl
I could never be..that girl
Blind
Blind to the red flag
When we made love
It was amazing
The way he pulled at my hair as I bit into the pillow
The way he whispered in my ear that I was his
Only his
How he dug so deep to make my back arch
And at times, I cringed in pain
But it was painfully passionate
Blind
Blind to the red flag
And when he hit me
I hoped, I prayed and I wished
But a starless sky cannot be wished upon
So I stopped wishing
I cried
But I felt so selfish as I looked at the cloudless sky
So I stopped crying
And I was confused
Confused on how I became that girl
Why I was so blind
Blind to the red flag
He instilled fear in me before he ever hit me
He broke me down before he ever threw me to the ground
And he made me love him before I could ever hate him